Monthly Archives: May 2011

Perfect.

First, dear Reader, don’t worry: I’m not going to be “inspired” by Black Swan as I was with Frida. However: I crave perfection. I’ve always replayed conversations, performances, social scenarios, more often than not to point out to myself what … Continue reading

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My ricochet heart.

I’ve felt pretty tough lately. It took a couple years of tenacity, grief, and self-reflection to get here. I allowed logic fueled by simmering, near-righteous anger to propel me into necessary action. I’m where I’m supposed to be. Whenever I … Continue reading

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Long hair.

Long, thick brown hair has been my signature trait for much of my life. It’s low maintenance, curls a bit, so I can pretend I’m not vain by spending little time and money on it. During days and phases of … Continue reading

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I miss the cats.

The fat, spoiled, striped cat brothers. They commended me to him by their early, purry acceptance of me, curling up as I slept, one in the crook of my arm and the other between my knees. His tenderness toward his … Continue reading

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A rose is still.

They’re selling this house that I’ve called home for three years. The master bedroom is empty, save my dresser and a few things in the closet and medicine cabinet. A lot of it is empty now. I moved into the … Continue reading

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All the world loves a clown.

I’m only a few weeks into the actual logistics of this divorce. My first one was just over a decade ago, the recovery from which felt like mourning the death of a lover and my own innocence.   I’m stronger … Continue reading

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Attraction and Seeking

It’s not a new concept… seems I’ve heard it forever: “We’re attracted to traits we lack (or feel we lack.)” To line them up, the men I’ve dated, married, and simply found attractive seem to have very little in common. … Continue reading

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